T I struggled with figuring out how to write this post, should I only write about the facts of my IVF treatment or write about everything happening during my IVF cycle?
I assumed once we got the magical go ahead that meant we would be starting our cycle that the cycle would consume our life. I assumed the next three weeks would be amazing, stressful, painful, euphoric, and full of hope. I thought our world would stop and everything would be about the possibility of a baby. These are the days I have been waiting for since they told us 2 years ago that this would be our baby path. I thought the only thing on our minds would be this moment, this baby.
I was wrong.
Last Friday May 2nd my grandmother left her apartment in Janesville, Wisconsin to go out and pray with and help the homeless as she did many nights.
Saturday someone found her purse, and she was reported as a missing person.
Monday a body was found near where she was last seen...it was not her. It was a girl who was murdered by a man who claims he had killed 2 other people.
Tuesday we found out we were finally ready to start our cycle, when my suppression check finally went well.
It's Thursday, we have no new answers about my grandmother, we are excited about our cycle, we are confused and heartbroken and trying to live a normal life in the midst of the most baffling time in our lives. Everything is up in the air.
The man who killed the girl and claimed to have killed others has stopped talking, the police can not connect him to my grandma, however they can not rule him out. So we wait.
You can find more info on her disappearance here.
http://www.nbc15.com/home/headlines/Janesville-Police-Searching-for-MIssing-Woman-257805811.html?device=tablet
I have decided that I couldn't tell my current IVF story without talking about the thing that is consuming my life right now, we love her so much and just want her home. I spend hours a day talking and texting with family trying to find anything, any clue. Clearly I am not in the ideal frame of mind to be going thru a life changing event like IVF...might not be the best time for my hormones to be thrown into overdrive. But we are hoping the IVF will work as a nice distraction. While my sister cousin and I think we are crack detectives that can rival Sherlock Holmes it won't be such a bad thing to spend a half hour a night giving myself shots and reconnecting with my husband instead of scouring the internet for clues. We are also so comforted by knowing we have the attain program. While I truly believe I will be pregnante in less than a month, it's extremely comforting knowing we have other chances if we need them. I can say that we would delay this cycle due to the stress if we didn't have the backup plan.
So...here we go again! Below are all the important dates as they sit now (they can change based on my hormone levels they will be checking every 3 days)
Saturday May 10th I will start taking 2 shots a day to help stimulate egg production. I will continue these until egg retrieval day.
Wednesday May 21st is egg retrieval day. They will go in surgically remove my eggs and mix them with Adams sperm.
The fertilized eggs will grow for 3-5 days in the lab
Saturday, May 24th would be a 3 day transfer (which is what we are hoping for as they usually produce better results)
Monday, May 26th would be a 5 day transfer
Wednesday, June 4th we will take a blood pregnancy test to see if it all works!
Cross your fingers we could use all sorts of luck in our lives right now!
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